Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Friday, August 22, 2014

Thursday, August 21, 2014

Free Will

Alone and feeling alone at a show that’s holding your attention by about 25 percent, a decision, based on loneliness and missing him, is made: Get drunk and do something unlike you.

This means drinking three beers instead of sticking with only the two. You’re a terrible drunk.

The bike ride up the hill at 1 a.m. is a struggle. You feel the beer.

At home, you listen to one of your favorite records, a dancehall-for-permaangst single made from the heart of your hometown. You turn in around four o’clock in the morning.

Four hours sleep. The remembering of an awful dream had.

In it, she screen captures posts from this blog and posts personal photos of you in private moments on a social media site. Captions include the words “twerp” and “the worst.” Her friends cheer her on in the comments.

Your stomach stays dropped all morning. You miss him even more.

A repeated thought: a horoscope in the local, slim alt-weekly that you read while seated alone at the venue.

Now is an excellent time to phase out fantasies that bog you down or drag you backward. Are you up for that challenge? Can you summon the courage to leave the mediocre past behind? If so, here are your assignments: Wean yourself of longings to reconstruct bygone pleasures. Forget about trying to be like the person you used to be and to have the keys you used to have. Stop feeding the feelings that keep you affixed to obsolete goals. Break any taboo that makes you scared to change what needs to be changed.

A horoscope, for Chrissake.

You returning her recent message – and breaking your silence – might be the "unlike you" that you vowed to execute at the show.

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

People Problems

A forgotten birthday on the day of his departure. A sorry attempt at bridging. An admittance of selfishness and laziness. A severing phone call with no explanation.

A first text message that breezes through a condolence. A second that makes it all about that person. Sporadic and weak follow-up communications.

People who you really liked as people, until they became these people.

No room in your life for these people.

Friday, August 15, 2014

Visual: SJ/JF at Nile Record Fair

SJ and James Fella at the Nile Record Fair
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Mesa, Arizona

Photo credit: Lesley Oliver

Thursday, August 14, 2014

Visual: Green Eater at Trunk Space

Green Eater at Trunk Space
Thursday, December 5, 2013
Phoenix, Arizona

Photo credit: James Fella

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Visual: Randall Cunningham Dance Company Recording Session

Randall Cunningham Dance Company recording session
Revolver Records, Phoenix, Arizona
Monday, January 6, 2014

Photo credits: James Fella

Monday, August 11, 2014

Visual: SSBT at Red Gate

Two-thirds of SSBT at Red Gate
Vancouver, British Columbia
Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Photo credit: Chris Cogburn

Friday, August 8, 2014

Tomorrow: SSBT at CymaSpace

The CymaSpace Mutli-sensory Cymatic Summer Events Series brings you an evening with SSBT and It's OK, Girl.

Come enjoy talented free-jazz and improvisational sets in tandem with the in-house sound-reactive art lighting installations and vibro-haptic furniture.

Saturday, August 9th 2014. Doors at 7pm. Music at 8pm.
CymaSpace, 4634 B NE Garfield Ave, Portland OR 97211
$5 Suggested Donation (help support the artists on their Summer Tour).

IT'S OK, GIRL is Danielle Ross (movement, www.daniellerossdance.com) and Ben Kates (saxophone, www.pitchandsiren.com).

Thursday, August 7, 2014

Tonight: SSBT at Hollow Earth Radio

(courtesy of The Stranger)

8 p.m. Thursday, August 7, 2014

Hollow Earth Radio
2018 East Union Street, #A
Seattle, Washington 98122

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Tonight: SSBT at Red Gate

SSBT with City Dragon, Holzpopf, Eschatons, Joda Clement

10 p.m. Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Red Gate Collective
855 East Hastings
Vancouver, British Columbia

Thursday, July 31, 2014

July 2014 Shows

Tuesday, July 15: Shitstorm, Holly Hunt, Haemorrhage @ The Jam Spot, Albuquerque

Wednesday, July 16: Civil Union, Prison of Sound, Terri Schivao Dance Party @ Sister, Albuquerque

Friday, July 18: Bleed the Pigs, Hollow Tongue @ Gasworks, Albuquerque

Sunday, July 20: Man or Astro-man?, Sallie Ford, Wray @ Launchpad, Albuquerque

Wednesday, July 23: Peter J. Woods, Alan George Ledergerber, Unnatural Element @ Burt's Tiki Lounge, Albuquerque

Saturday, July 26: Soft Shoulder @ Wall Street, Phoenix

Thursday, July 31: Bonnie Montgomery, Shayna Rain and the Gents @ Velveteen Rabbit, Las Vegas

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Saturday: SSBT at Mothership Music

Freeform Free Jazz Freakout Night at The Ship...

SSBT outta Austin Texas will be bringing the hardcore guitar, sax, and drum free noise for deranged souls and those of us fed up with all the bullshit!

Fiasco is our own PDX darlings of free sound and tonal abuse led by the one and only king of Portland underground Jazz Mr. Shane Ronet.

get yer head adjusted!



$5 donation for the musicians

3611 NE MLK
Portland, Oregon 97212

across the street from Beech St. Parlor, hint hint

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Saturday: SSBT on KPSU Closet Radio

SSBT will be live and on-air at Portland State University's KPSU during Closet Radio from 5 to 7 p.m. Pacific Daylight Time. Saturday, August 2. Tune in.

Monday, July 28, 2014

Storm Trooper

Under an hour, and still one of the worst flights.

A screaming baby. A fidgety, sweaty seatmate. Extreme turbulence. A landing so rough that a vertebrae in your low back seems to twist the wrong way.

When the outcome is in doubt, you pray. You never pray.

You also talk to him, who recently departed. It’s extreme and not sane, but it still feels nice to reach out.

Friday, July 25, 2014


The reception couldn’t be better, but the people couldn’t be sadder. Since you’ve lived it for nearly two years, you left that place months ago. Or so you thought.

Wednesday, July 23, 2014


No desire to travel, for staying put, to work, to sit around, to be alone or around people. The mantra he lived makes you do something, even when it’s nothing.

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Friday, July 18, 2014

Conversations by César Aira

An insignificant detail in a B-movie, watched separately by two friends and discussed later at a café, sets into motion an absurd and dizzying conversation where there is no winner. A brilliant writer and author of An Episode in the Life of a Landscape Painter, César Aira's sound construction in this 88-page novel is another document that illustrates the Argentine's heft in contemporary fiction.

Representative passage:

In order to appreciate the magnitude of my disappointment, I should explain just how important conversations are for me. At this stage of my life, they have become the single most important thing. I have allowed them to occupy this privileged position, and have cultivated them as a raison d'être, almost like my life work. They constitute my only worthwhile occupation, and I have devoted myself to enhancing their value, treasuring them through their reconstruction and miniaturization on my secret nocturnal altar. Hence, if I lose the day, I also lose the night. In fact, my nights even more than my days would be emptied out, for it is always possible to find other distractions during the day; nights are more demanding; their entire sustenance is intelligence and the complicity of intelligence, which becomes complicity with myself through my system of duplication. To lose that would be to lose myself, to remain alone in my aimless insomnia. 

Thursday, July 17, 2014

ABQ Existence Summary

Accidentally taken while cycling somewhere in central Albuquerque

Sometime during July 2014

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Night Film by Marisha Pessl

This is worse than a sophomore slump. It's a shitshow.

Marisha Pessl, who nailed it when she debuted with her 2006 novel Special Topics in Calamity Physics, completely misfires with the murder mystery-esque Night Film, which attempts to chronicle the unexplained death of the daughter of a cult horror filmmaker. 

While the plot is mildly interesting, the narration by the annoying main character -- a shamed investigative reporter -- is maddening for the clichés that litter the 624-page hardcover en masse and the sentences that are weak in their transitions and too often feel like padding.

The most maddening characteristic of Night Film is Pessl's use of italics to emphasis internal thoughts or dialogue. She uses this writing trick so often that it reads like a college freshman's term paper, in which that college freshman read Night Film and thought it was the best book he had ever read.

Randomly selected passage:

Harry banged the glass of water onto the bar. She grabbed it, gulping it down, a drop of water trickling out the edge of her red mouth, sliding down her chin. She set the empty glass down, wobbling unsteadily on her heels, and the bartender wordlessly moved away to refill it. He'd been through this drill with her before.

Tuesday, July 15, 2014


A house with a premium of sun, daily storms that threaten to destroy, a 12-mile walk/hike in the nearby mountains, the steep decline into downtown and the intense incline back up the hill by bike, a nightly trip to a venue or the cinema. The ability for privacy in public in a place where you can blend in.